Before i start ..Im not looking for anyone to say "stay" im telling everyone how it is. today i made a daft mistake and i feel crap about it. this forum has turned me into a nutcase...i was part way there but i have to admit im the full way there now. Im soley writing this so people wont send pms wondering why im not replying.
Last week we had a great weekend only i had a call to tell me off a mass discussion behind my back which to be honest lit my blue touch paper. i was out for revenge. how pathetic i behaved to which i owe apologies to several people.
Maybe i was daft enough to let the goaders get the better of me knowing my weakness are my competitive streaks.
Also i listened to too many people saying "they said this..they said that about you ! " i know who talks about me so why should i let it bother me now ? I suppose its just disappointing to be talking to someone one minute then to hear that they couldnt wait to get you away to gossip.
Anyway im now of the opinion that forumsmake it too easy to say things you dont mean and to act outve character.
I really dont want any comments on this post as ive been eaten from the inside all day over it. My times up here for a while and i feel i dont gain anything anymore but stress and i feel that my 47 year old character is changing due to unneccassary reasons. I dont like what ive become on here..simple as that, its not me. All the qualities that i loathe in people ive seen in me recently. Lets just say i need a detox. So from this Sunday im off with a few good mates to Scotland. Fresh air...dogs and no idle chit-chat.
The ones who talked about me all last sunday and carry on doing so as im broad enuff to take any of it.
i apologise unequivically to those ive offended and aim to reform before showing my red face here again.
i took a break before and it worked a treat..i stopped chasing cats and didnt buy any more lucky bags..i even stopped planting Magic Beans.....maybe itll work again.
j :b hn
Last week we had a great weekend only i had a call to tell me off a mass discussion behind my back which to be honest lit my blue touch paper. i was out for revenge. how pathetic i behaved to which i owe apologies to several people.
Maybe i was daft enough to let the goaders get the better of me knowing my weakness are my competitive streaks.
Also i listened to too many people saying "they said this..they said that about you ! " i know who talks about me so why should i let it bother me now ? I suppose its just disappointing to be talking to someone one minute then to hear that they couldnt wait to get you away to gossip.
Anyway im now of the opinion that forumsmake it too easy to say things you dont mean and to act outve character.
I really dont want any comments on this post as ive been eaten from the inside all day over it. My times up here for a while and i feel i dont gain anything anymore but stress and i feel that my 47 year old character is changing due to unneccassary reasons. I dont like what ive become on here..simple as that, its not me. All the qualities that i loathe in people ive seen in me recently. Lets just say i need a detox. So from this Sunday im off with a few good mates to Scotland. Fresh air...dogs and no idle chit-chat.
The ones who talked about me all last sunday and carry on doing so as im broad enuff to take any of it.
i apologise unequivically to those ive offended and aim to reform before showing my red face here again.
i took a break before and it worked a treat..i stopped chasing cats and didnt buy any more lucky bags..i even stopped planting Magic Beans.....maybe itll work again.
j :b hn
